swallow

swallowing down everything that is angry, sad, unhappy, upset makes me feel so damn depressed. sometimes i really think of giving up this bloody job and start all over again but i may want to go further my studies. how to? the workload, the pressure and stress, the communication, the firm i must have, the staffs giving me all the rubbish troubles, customers who bitch non-stop.. EVERY SINGLE THING irritates me. nowhere to pour everything out. no place to hide and cry. nowhere i can go to scream out everything i swallowed. no one to understand how i felt. i'm so damn stressed out. i seriously need a break. i know they wouldn't let me rest. i regretted for joining Bossini and putting myself in such a stressful position with no staff can ever stop talking about roster and going home early, no customers ever stop telling me they wun be buying and await further sales, no manager ever tell me to do all my best will do, no customers ever stop expecting so much and still think its not good enuff and no one ever top putting high hopes for me. i'm dying. someone save me~!